human see, human do

Ah... those apes at it again. Baby milo "air cusion" included with the 2005 Autumn/ Winter Collection catalog.

I'm so excited about the fast approaching HK/ JAP trip. I've been looking forward to this for a long time. A VERY l~o~n~g time. Many years in the making.Things are little different to when it was planned but I'm still going with the woman I love and thats not about to change and I won't have it any other way.

So much to see and do... better start planning!

Pandora's box

Pandora...
the first mortal woman.
In one story she was created by Zeus and sent to earth with a jar or box of evils in revenge for Prometheus' having brought the gift of fire back to the world. Pandora let out all the evils from the jar to infect the earth; hope alone remained to assuage the lot of humankind.

Its been the longest and most agonizing two days I had in my life.

sleepless & coming undone

A vivid lurid dream woke me at 3.45 AM and I couldn't get back to sleep.
Images flooded my mind whenever I try to shut my eyes... her absence reverberate between these four walls

... and a spoke of my favourite umbrella came undone.

another dimension.

new toy! (courtesy of Chi-ho)

time marches on

One of the great tragedy in life is that something always changes.
Something always does.

volume & deduction

After a few drinks ideas and thoughts are like sails after a great storm but some remains on course.
Friend proposed that as we get older our personal space expand and that become less receptive... its probably better to consider it as spheral volume where interaction between volumes are tangential and sometimes becomes peripheral. Not always the case consider if density and pressure on the surface of these bubbles interact in a constructive manner then its possible to merge and allow one to deform the other/s.

...after 5 empty glasses

The way we make decision has been altered over time too. Perhaps not always the case but certainly a different way to being to understand. Over time we somehow acquired and adopted a deductive way of thinking. By "acquired" I mean that it is a learnt skill not inherently in all of us. An infant communicate (regardless of the means and effectivemess) to get what he or she wants. The decision is made using a prime approach. X wants Y thus explains action XY.
Reason and rationality stands accused as the fugitive in this game. Action XY is not always driven by a simple want. The decision is now X wants Y, in a deductive manner, because under reasoning and rational assessment Y is more feasible option over say... W and Z. The action taken is still (XY) but the process is now completely changed.

Okay...some might say what difference does that make? what am i getting at? the result is the same? And the truth is well... not much, it really doesn't mean anything. Except one can begin to see why babies are the happiest little people on earth

detox

A txt message came thru... after 36 hours delay. I'm glad I got the message that some part of her wanted to be there.
I made myself a cup of tea like the way she used to but it wasn't the same. My hand shakes but it stopped after a while. It comes and goes.
Its worse then I imagine.

Day 1.

2006 has landed.

And so it is...
If one was to ask me months ago how I would spend 05' NYE... well, several likelihood... hmmm
a.) "Quiet one at home" - fireworks on television and when the count down reached zero a sigh of relief follow by sudden rush of anxiety and emotion so convincing that would have me believe that like many others, I too, am glad to see 06.
b.) "Quiet one at home or Out and About with Jul" - go thru the same motion as above but by the end a kiss and a hug that would actually cement the feeling that I AM glad to see the years ahead.
c.)Surrounded by faces that I will likely never see again (with the exception of a few), the foul taste of beer in my mouth and cheers that’s more like a mournful cry for the irretrievable past. The 10 mins light show, with every faded sparkle that sprawled the cloudless night sky I couldn't help but was overcame by an uneasy feeling. However brilliant the colours and sparks maybe it's inevitable that it must fade on its descend. But to hell with that, they were brilliant!! (It’s in the paper, right?)

So with that said, I would've wanted b.) ...But with a.) An unlikely choice and b.) For reason beyond my control, they were out the window so I was left with c.)

But as the great philosopher Jagger said " You can't always get what you want... but if you try sometime you just might find you get what you need."